One of my goals during this sabbatical is to re-ground myself. When life is going a hundred miles a hour, it is easy to get swept up in the next thing that has to be accomplished. I am going to try to slow down and do those things that resonate with who I am.

Ironically, one of the ways that I am hoping to slow down is to run. In addition to being a physical exercise, running has always been a spiritual and mental practice for me. I feel more like myself when I get to run regularly; when I first moved to Nashville it was 3 or 4 runs a week of 4-5 miles. Since Covid that regularity has eroded to a 5K run every week or two.

When my therapist asked me what I was going to do on my first day of sabbatical, I replied that I was going to drop my kids off at school and go for a run. I wanted to get out there and get going.

I did not get out there and get going yesterday morning; at least not in that way. I like to believe this is a sign of maturity. When I was younger and I would go for a run after a long layoff, I would push myself and then I would run sprints afterwards. I would be panting with my hands on my knees saying out loud, “Christopher (my reasonable voice calls me “Christopher”), why are you doing this?” And then I would respond super dramatically, “Because I can.” Then I’d will myself to do another sprint. It was dumb, but you can often get away with dumb when you’re in your early 20s.

Begin Again

I am going to try something that I haven’t done in quite some time. In fact, I don’t think many people do it much anymore: blogging. Remember blogs? They were kind of big in the 2000s; like podcasts that you read. It was great.

I remember firing up my first blog on Blogspot when I was just out of college. Was it named after a line in a Jars of Clay song that my 22 year old self thought was incredibly deep? Yes. Does that song still make me tear up if it catches me at the right moment? Also yes. Does that blog still exist on the internet? Horrifyingly yes. Am I going to link to it? Heck no. You’re going to have to hunt down the ramblings of my early 20s yourself.

I wrote fairly consistently for about a decade, but fell out of the regular habit when I moved to Nashville to take a job as a youth minister. And I have missed it. Writing about faith, life, and the often nerdy thoughts that amble through my mind was a way to ground myself and reckon with a world that can often bewilder me. It was also an essential part of my relationship with God, a spiritual practice that nourished me.

Till Kingdom Come (Acts 17:16-34)

Six and a half years ago, we were still living in Spartanburg, SC and I had no idea what I was supposed to do with my life. I had just graduated seminary. I had worked for about 10 years in a ministry where I thought I would serve my entire life, but had come to the slow and difficult realization that I wasn’t supposed to be there. Trouble is, I had no clue where I was supposed to be. I left for an ellipses; the dot dot dot of something to be determined. To help feed a young family, I substitute taught and served as an assistant teacher at our school district’s early childhood center. I gained a huge respect for people who hold down those vocations and I was not happy. I felt lost and adrift.

One evening I went for a walk by myself in our neighborhood and I found myself standing by a pond talking out loud to a God who I wasn’t sure was even there. “Where in the heck are You?,” I remember saying, “I don’t know if I can do this much longer.” I didn’t get an answer that night and went home with nothing more than the catharsis that comes with admitting that something sucks. An answer did eventually come that kept and still keeps me holding on. We’ll get there but to make that journey we need to talk about the stories that Jesus told and still tells.

Throughout the last couple of months, we have been doing this series on the parables of Jesus found in the gospel of Luke. These are legitimately some of my favorite stories in scripture because they are so sneaky brilliant. Jesus tells these of profound religious truth yet the stories themselves are hardly ever in a religious context. These parables are not stories of priests and rabbis and worship services and synagogue meetings. Instead Jesus tells stories of seeds and crops, crooked accountants and weeping tax collectors, runaway sons and stubborn widows. In fact, when Jesus does include the religious in his stories it is often to subvert his listeners’ expectations like when a priest and Levite sidestep a victim of violence to setup a despised Samaritan being the hero. What I love about this way of telling stories is that by taking the things of God and hiding them within these stories of earth and the everyday, Jesus is demonstrating how the holy is all around us.

Setting the Example (Lookout Kid) (1 Timothy 4:4-12)

Last week, I was at Bethany Hills with our high schoolers and students from other Disciples congregations in Tennessee. It was a wonderful seven days; honestly the best I have had over there. However, It did not give me ample time to write a sermon. It’s hard to do that when everything is damp all the time from the humidity, everything smells like Cheetos and bug spray, there are ridiculous songs about fish being played from Bluetooth speakers, and you keep catching the most random snippets of conversations. Plus given the choice, it’s just better to be with people.

I told this to Christi Williams when she was picking up her two children from camp on Friday and she said with matter-of-a-fact confidence, “Just tell four stories from camp and say, ‘Amen.’” So this sermon is how my sleep-deprived mind takes some experiences from this past week, run it through the filter of today’s scripture passage and a recent song from one of my favorite bands, and see what it can say to us about faith and leadership.

Let me set the stage with that verse and that song. In 1 Timothy 4:4-12, the writer, which could be Paul or it could be someone writing in Paul’s name, is encouraging a young minister. There is a reminder that everything created by God is good and a reminder about how utterly important it is to train oneself in godliness; one should not neglect taking care of themselves spiritually just like they shouldn’t neglect their physical or mental health. The writer reminds the reader that this training can be difficult. It can be a toil and a struggle, yet we set our hope on Jesus.

To Jim on His 12th Birthday

Let’s start with this picture; a birthday tradition that began when you were probably five years old. You would always hold up the number of fingers you turned that day. Obviously last year, we exceeded the digits on your hands. You actually made a joke this morning about holding up one of your feet. Instead we just took this picture.

And this is the first time that I see something else in your birthday picture. I’ll look back and there is this bright eyed, cherubic kid. That’s still in there but I’m beginning to see the something beyond the kid now. You’re getting taller, leaner. You’re growing up and the little kid part of you is starting to recede into the background. I am not entirely sure what to do with that. I mean, you’re twelve. This is life. It is what happens.

We actually had a nice moment talking about this in the car on the way to school today. You crawled into the front seat after we dropped your brother off. “You can’t believe you have a twelve year old, huh?” you asked. I explained that I did believe it. I have been here the whole time after all, but it was strange. I remember first hearing your heartbeat. I remember the first time I saw your tiny, helpless body as the nurses handed you to your mom. So for that baby to be sitting in the front seat asking that question in a deeper voice as I drive him into middle school is weird. But I said that growing up is what you are supposed to do and your supposed to do and that your mom and I are proud of the young man you’re becoming.

To Liam on His 9th Birthday

I write this at the end of full day which has come at the end of a long week. It was Spring Break this past week and so your Mom and I thought it good to take you and your brother to Washington, D.C. Some of it was wonderful. I will never get tired of seeing you or your brother experience new things in this world. I swelled with pride as you started rattling off facts about a president and impressed a stranger when we were in the National Museum of American History. And I loved following you as you bounded around pointing out planes and spaceships at the Udvar-Hazy Center of the Air and Space Museum. Of course other parts, were a little more taxing. I think most parents have moments on vacation with their kids when they seriously question the whole concept of vacation with kids.

We capped it off by stopping in Pigeon Forge on the way home to go to Dollywood with your South Carolina grandparents and some of your cousins. All of this was a lot of fun, but I am incredibly tired and I am not sure that my weary mind can produce what I really want to in this annual letter to you. But I’m going to try.

I could rattle off how you still love ducks and Scooby-Doo. Or about how you are really in to reading books about which animals would win in a battle or real-life survival stories. I could talk about how if there is a wall then you are going to try walk on it. Or about how it slightly concerns me how half the time that you play Zelda, you are seeking out creative ways for Link to get maimed and/or killed. Or I could talk about how almost once a week while we are reading Bible stories, you ask really probing and challenging questions about faith that give my Master of Divinity degree a run for its money.

Transfiguration & Transformation

High up on a mountain comes a voice: “This is my Son, the chosen one.” In that moment it was hard not to believe the call that thundered from the cloud. Their teacher’s face had transformed and his garments shined like lightning. Moses and Elijah stood there at his side. Surely this man was the Son of God.

Yet the voice was not finished. Lost in the cloud, those three dumbfounded disciples heard instruction: “Listen to him!” It was those words on which the Transformation of Peter, James, John, and the rest of us hang. It was one thing to think that he was God’s Son, but it was another entirely to listen to him.

I want to see transformation. I think that most of us do. Not so much for our faces to change or our clothes to flash with blinding light. But the kind of change that comes from truly listening to Jesus. To truly love the Lord our God with all of our heart, soul, mind, and strength. To love our neighbors, enemies, and ourselves. To be those blessed peacemakers.

Getting Out of the Boat (Matthew 14:22-33)

For the last two weeks, the Winter Olympics have been on our TV constantly. It does not matter what event it is or whether the United States has any shot at a medal, we’re watching it. I love it. I love all the countries of the world coming together. I love the underdog stories. I was really pumped to see the Jamaican bobsled team back in the Games this year. It’s a lot of fun to watch. But something occurred to me this year as I watched and I don’t know why because tons of people on the internet have said the same thing: these are the most bizarre and stupid dangerous sports in existence.

In the Summer Olympics, the events are pretty straight forward. Who can run the fastest, swim the fastest, jump the highest, throw the farthest? In the Winter Olympics it’s “We have this ice roller coaster and we have a variety of ways to send you down it at 80 miles per hour. You can go in a bullet sled with your buddies or lay on your back in a regular sled, or you can go face first, or we can stack another person on top of you.” Or “Ski down this mountain, go off the ramp, do flips and twists 200 feet in the air, and then don’t shatter when you hit the ground.” In biathlon, they took cross country skiing—which seems like it might be the most grueling sport in existence—and someone said, “But what if we gave them guns?” Even sports in which I have participated in like skiing or skating are down with such daredevil degrees of difficulty that if I were to try even half of what they do, my best case scenario is a concussion.