Joshua Tree
Have you ever been in a place so still that peace sinks down into your bones? That is one of my best attempts at describing Joshua Tree National Park. One evening late in our trip, the four of us traveled about a hour from our hotel to arrive at the park before sunset. Our sons were hesitant to go. They were tired and had just spent two days at Disneyland. How could rocks, trees, desert, and sky stand up to Disneyland?
It stood up pretty darn well.
We drove into the park and found an area to pull our car into. We piled out to see trails working their way towards these piles of rocks through brush and these trees-that-weren’t-really-trees with their branches bending in all sorts of Seussical directions. The boys and I scrambled up the rocks until we couldn’t go any higher. We rejoined EA on the ground and took in a land unlike any we’d seen. We took pictures. Then we found another way up the rocks and made our way to the top.
All the while, the setting sun painted the sky in shades of glowing orange, gold, and salmon pink on a canvas of steel blue. And we would just watch. For awhile, we sat on rocks high above the ground. Then we returned to the desert floor and we gazed at the rocks, trees, desert, and sky. My heart rate slows just thinking about that view.
We clambered back in the car and drove through the park as dusk gave way to the stars. After driving for a hour or so, we pulled off the side of the road. We stared at the pinpricks of light that were the only illumination for miles and miles. On the side of that desert road, the four of us shared in our daily trip ritual of High, Low, Buffalo where we shared the good, the not-so-good, and the random of the past day. No surprise that our time in the park was everyone’s high.
Before we left that bone-deep peace for the quiet hum of the car, I remembered Psalm 8, particularly the third and fourth verses: “When I look at Your heavens, the work of Your fingers, the moon and the stars that You have established; what are humans that You are mindful of them, mortals that You care for them?” As small as we were in that park, as plain as we might have seemed amongst a stunning sunset in the wild, I felt cared for.
Not that God painted that sky and landscape for me, but that I got to experience it with the three people I love most. I hope our boys always remember Joshua Tree and that they will find more places and people in their lives that fill them with such peach and such gratitude. Because if I slow down for a minute and quiet everything down in my head, I can experience that peace in the city sky I see from the back steps of our house or in the sounds of one of my boys laughing or the feeling of my wife’s hand in mine. For all that and much more, I am unbelievably grateful.

I have a new office in our home and one of the things I am enjoying is decorating the space. I have placed books, Lego sets, and Funko Pops on the shelves. My wall has photos of family, places that I have traveled, artwork my siblings have given me, diplomas, etc. Across from my desk on the wall, hangs a cross that we got from a church in Reykjavik and a small colorfully-painted tile depicting Assisi. On the floor beneath them is the one item in here that I haven’t yet put up: my certificate of ordination.
I was ordained as a minister ten years ago today. It was a step with which I struggled for awhile. My Baptist roots fostered in me a firm belief in the priesthood of all believers. If you say that you are a follower of Jesus, then you are a minister. So the hierarchy implied by being called “Reverend” made me feel a little uncomfortable. I did not use the title for myself often unless I was writing my Congressperson. Despite these qualms, I did ultimately pursue ordination. I am glad that I did. I am just not totally sure what to make of it now.
I don’t serve as a vocational minister anymore; not in a church, not as a chaplain, not in some sort of parachurch organization. I am an Administrative Assistant in a hospital Spiritual Care department. In fact, I haven’t even attended a church service in maybe a year and a half save an Ash Wednesday service that I snuck off to at the beginning of Lent. I did officiate a wedding in a church over the summer; an experience that I loved and was very meaningful for me. But I don’t really know what to do about that ordination certificate. Or church.