Weekly Lectionary takes a look (sometimes brief, sometimes longer, sometimes odd) at one of the lectionary passages for the upcoming Sunday. This week we're looking at the New Testament passage: Hebrews 4:12-16.
The message that I pull from this passage is quite simple. Peel back the layers of Great High Priest and the word of God (scripture? logos?) being a sword. When you get down to it, there is this: Jesus understands our weakness. And even though he didn't sin, Jesus sympathizes with humanity.
Sympathy is a pretty big word in there. I have often looked at this passage and seen Jesus passing through our temptation as a sign of Jesus being holy or proof that we can pass unscathed through the temptations that we face. Those thoughts are not necessarily untrue. But the idea of Jesus sympathizing with our weakness is just not something one can ignore. I think a major point is that he knows and even appreciates how difficult it is to be human.
I think I have always believed that God looks at us like abject failures whenever we sin. We are massive disappointments. And in that mindset, this Hebrews passage sort of became "Why can't you be more like your big brother Jesus?" Yet sympathy changes the tenor of that relationship.
It doesn't mean that sin is okay. It doesn't mean that God is happy when we do things that hurt ourselves or other people. But God knows us well and understands. God understands the hell that we put ourselves and each other through when we capitulate to the myriad of temptations that drag down our gaze. And God wants to help us. God wants us to know that we can approach the Holy for the aid we so desperately need without fear.
All of that is a reminder to me that, even in our weakness, humanity is known, understood, and, yes, even loved.
I have a new office in our home and one of the things I am enjoying is decorating the space. I have placed books, Lego sets, and Funko Pops on the shelves. My wall has photos of family, places that I have traveled, artwork my siblings have given me, diplomas, etc. Across from my desk on the wall, hangs a cross that we got from a church in Reykjavik and a small colorfully-painted tile depicting Assisi. On the floor beneath them is the one item in here that I haven’t yet put up: my certificate of ordination.
I was ordained as a minister ten years ago today. It was a step with which I struggled for awhile. My Baptist roots fostered in me a firm belief in the priesthood of all believers. If you say that you are a follower of Jesus, then you are a minister. So the hierarchy implied by being called “Reverend” made me feel a little uncomfortable. I did not use the title for myself often unless I was writing my Congressperson. Despite these qualms, I did ultimately pursue ordination. I am glad that I did. I am just not totally sure what to make of it now.
I don’t serve as a vocational minister anymore; not in a church, not as a chaplain, not in some sort of parachurch organization. I am an Administrative Assistant in a hospital Spiritual Care department. In fact, I haven’t even attended a church service in maybe a year and a half save an Ash Wednesday service that I snuck off to at the beginning of Lent. I did officiate a wedding in a church over the summer; an experience that I loved and was very meaningful for me. But I don’t really know what to do about that ordination certificate. Or church.