Each week, we look at one of the lectionary passages for the upcoming Sunday. This week, I am actually preaching at our church on the Old Testament passage of Isaiah 40:21-31, but I wanted to take a detour into the gospel passage, Mark 1:29-39, to do something a bit different. One phrase in particular jumped out at me and what came forth was more lyrical. I guess you would call it a poem, though it's probably an insult to poetry to call it that.
"Everyone is searching for you"
Did that ring in his ears?
Did Simon realize how loaded
That statement was?
How loaded it would be?
From the beginning,
Everyone searched for him:
Shepherds, a mad king,
Strangers from a foreign land
Looking for hope, a threat, a leader
As a child, it was his parents
Scouring the Holy City
Desperate to find their lost son
Wondering if they let their people's
Salvation slip through their fingers
And here he was now
The object of much searching
It would not stop
They would search until his dying day
And well beyond
Yet he always dodged the search
Egyptian detours
Temple lectures
Messianic secrets
Empty tombs
You almost wonder
If he was playing hard to get
Trying to let us know
That there was some great value
In all of this seeking
We're still searching
Scouring scripture
Checking through churches
Looking at the Least
Hoping we can find him
He's there for us
But he seems to like the chase
Perhaps because when we think
The search is over
Is when we truly lose him
I believe that most of us experience an internal tug-of-war between the past and the future. In The Screwtape Letters, C.S. Lewis’ titular demon supervisor advises his underling Wormwood that one of best ways to keep a human from doing good is to keep them ping-ponging between those two times that are not the present. One keeps trying to recapture or reach towards moments that are mist. It can keep a person from doing something.
The quote above resonates with me because it harnesses the past and unfinished future into a catalyst that animates our present. We remember the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus because it means something today and compels us to presently work for the Good that is already here, but also not yet. We remember the hope and pain of the past to do something that help us take some sort of step each and every day. We realize that the hope which exists within the gospel story is not yet fully realized. Many people are still being left behind and forgotten. The realization, as the theologian Metz states, puts pressure and questions on the present.